Wow. It's my last chapter. (maybe ;D)
If there is anything I want to leave you with, it's this.
God has a plan and purpose for your life, a life filled with good things.
Now I know for a fact life is full of rough patches. Heck, you just read my whole story, you should know that I know that! But I believe that the rough patches will end someday and I'll be happy. That all my daily struggles will someday seem so insignificant and I'll thank God for delivering me from these days.
I have kept my promise to Tavie and God. I don't intend on breaking it.
My family is learning to cope without a father and husband. We are getting along a lot better than we used too. Thing's are looking up there.
I still believe for the gaping hole in my heart where my Dad used to be to be healed. Because even though I try to hide it......it's painful. I trusted him completely, loved him more than anybody, and he ruined my childhood.
But I have forgiven him.
I am learning to trust again. I am learning that when people say I love you I am truly trying to believe it. I think back to all the people who have helped us on this difficult journey, from the lady at the hotel who saw us in distress and said a kind word to my best friend who I have cried to and she still puts up with me. I thank God for all those beautiful people......because without them.....we wouldn't have made it. I wouldn't have made it.
I tell myself I am worth fighting for. I am beautiful. I am loved. I am precious. I have a perfect Father.
Father to the Fatherless. When I named this at the beginning of my book, I was looking for a Father. But now, I've realized.....I have one. And I neverdidn'thave one!
A perfect Father, who is always there for me, listens to me, loves me even though he sees all of me, know's I am of worth, cries with me, laughs with me, comforts me with Scriptures. He will never break my trust. He will never leave me. He will always love me.
My story will not be over until I die. So I can't really finish this and say "The End!" because it isn't the end. This is just a chapter of my life closing, and a new one starting.
So now, I look ahead and not behind. I look toward the future He has promised me. I thank Him for how far He has gotten me, and thank Him daily for continually loving me.
"For I know the plans I have for you" says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11