I'm starting to feel a little bit happier now a days. I have came across some new friends that do their best to help me through these rough patches of my life, and I am forever thankful to have them. they have helped me overcome some inner fears and to see that the world is not all bad and that there is a chance for me to finally be happy. I'm a little hesitant to take the chance because I am scared of what might happen in the long run. I know I should take the chance and see if it will help me improve these dark feelings and finally shed some light to the realization that I am not alone. that there are people that do care for me and will do their best to help me through any struggle that comes my way. I am thankful for those that support me instead of bringing me down. I need to reflect this to them and show that I have been making some progress in life and that I am doing my best to improve. I need to take that leap of faith and see that they are here for me. but at the same time, I am a little scared of what could happen, but can they really blame me? my life has been a constant fit of emotion and rage for other people because of how I was treated at a young age and sometimes i can not help it. i was constantly picked on almost every day and sometimes it gets to be too much and it is hard to cope with sometimes but i am only human and i will make mistakes, but I have been learning from them. I feel like I need to make some changes and that is exactly what I am going to do.