For the first break time ever, I was alone. It was terrifying.
1) I was scared about that dark guy who was interested in Sarah
2) Sarah was going out with someone I had never met before and had been keeping secrets from me.
And 3) She was avoiding me!
I didn't understand. She knew I couldn't cope without her. I had become dependent on her, like a puppy is dependent on its owner. I don't care how pathetic that sounds: when you lose those who are dearest to you, you need someone to fill that gap. Otherwise you'll lead a broken, empty life. How could Sarah do this to me? How could she forget that she had been the only one I could turn to on the day it had truly hit me that my parents were gone? Even though I had scarcely known them, even though it had taken me five years to realise what I had lost, it had still been a horrifying experience.
But now, it seems, she had forgotten.
Now, the only thing on her mind was Theseus.
Bitterness and sadness competed for first place in my mood and I didn't know which one was winning. I didn't want either to win. But life doesn't listen to you. Of course it doesn't.
I was sitting in the library, in a corner tucked away and surrounded on three sides by shelves, contemplating my life. My tragic thoughts (in both senses of the word) were interrupted by a female voice which said "Hi."
I looked up to see a girl who looked a little younger than me (perhaps a fourth or fifth former) with brown hair that fell just past her shoulders and pretty little blue eyes (maybe a shade darker than sapphire blue) standing in front of me with a friendly smile on her face.
"Hi," I said, frowning slightly.
"You're Jamie, aren't you? Sarah Windfall's best friend."
I winced at Sarah's name. "Yeah, that's me."
"I'm Amelia Brown. Theseus's best friend."
I stood up. "Nice meeting you."
I started to walk away. No way was I making friends with a friend of Sarah's boyfriend. No way.
The girl followed me, right out the library.
I turned. "What?"
"I'm not going to tell Theseus how much you hate him or anything. I want to help you."
"Help me? You sound like that angel, Aurora." I hadn't meant to sound so resentful about her. I hope she wasn't listening in or anything.
"The one who has a crush on Theseus?"
"What? Does that guy have girls tailing him?"
"No. He's just a bit fanciable," Amelia replied. "But not from my point of view," she added quickly.
"I don't care about your point of view. As far as I'm concerned, you're on his side."
"I don't want to talk about him around you, though. I want to talk about Sarah."
"Don't even mention her name. She's betrayed me and she knows it."
Amelia looked confused. "But you weren't going out."
"That's not what I meant. Just keep out of my business."
I started to walk away again, fuming. The girl had just touched two nerves. If she hit anymore, I would hurt her feelings.
"Wait!" she called again, running after me. "Sarah loves you," she blurted out.
I turned. "What?!"
Amelia looked instantly regretful. "I shouldn't have said that. Sorry. I can tell you don't want to talk to me."
She hurriedly turned away. This time, it was me following her.
"Wait. What do you mean, she loves me? She likes your best friend. And she's been trying to keep away from me lately."
Amelia turned. Hesitantly, she said "She loves you too. And she's been staying away because she doesn't want to hurt you."
"That's not why I wanted to talk to you, though. I wanted to help you with the fact you feel lonely and sad. It must be hard, seeing the girl you love with someone else."
"You bet," I muttered.
"So... can we be friends?"
"Yeah, 'kay," I murmured.
To my surprise, Amelia hugged me. To my further surprise, it was exactly what I needed. I hugged her tightly, thanking the Powers That Be for friends and friendly people, and then was overwhelmed by emotion. Releasing all my negative feelings, I unashamedly began to cry.