Nien did not get to sleep as quickly as Luce. Her mind was working overtime thinking thoughts that rebelled against her heart. It was trying to rationalize the thoughts, make sense of them, explain why she would even consider thinking them.
Her mind was saying: It feels like we're moving too fast! It's not that I don't love him... I mean... that's part of the problem... do I love him? Or this something more shallow? A primal lust? A part of me trying to make up for lost time?
Her heart was arguing back: Of course its love! Do you think anyone who wasn't in love with you would kiss you? Newsflash Nien, you aren't the prettiest girl alive! He took you to a movie, to dinner, he "played" with your friends... And YOU love him too! You wouldn't get so defensive and upset with your friends when they tease you... it HAS to be love.
Nien was saying: Shut up and let me sleep!
She began to drift off and was closing her eyes when there was a light tap on the door. Who...? thought Nien as she stood up and walked over to the door. She opened it a smidgen and peered out the crack into Aaron's smiling face. She opened the door wider and slipped out into the night.
"Aaron what are you doing here?" Nien whispered, trying to be a little upset but finding hard not to be.
"I... well I just wanted to see you..."
"You couldn't have waited until tomorrow ?" Nien said with a smile. Aaron shook his head grinning as well. The war from earlier began to resume in her head, and Nien found herself caught between two decisions floating around in her head. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and did one of the hardest things she had ever done.
"Aaron... listen to me, and please hear me out. I like you. I really do. You are the first boy I've had something like this with and I don't want it to end... but I think we may be going too fast... do you catch my drift? I mean... we've known each other for barely a week and you've already taken me out to dinner and everything..."
She looked at Aaron closely and could see that he was trying to hold back a frown. She swallowed and kept going.
"I'd like to continue our relationship, but let's take a step back and get to know each other more before we progress ok? If you do love me... you won't mind all that much will you?"
Aaron looked into her eyes and leaned close. "I won't mind at all... as long as I can be near you." A mischievous smile came to his face and he whispered "And only if I can do this once and awhile." He leaned in and gave her a quick kiss. Not as deep or long as the others, but to Nien it felt right. It was where they should be.
Nien laughed softly "I suppose that's all right Aaron." A creaking behind her caused Nien to turn quickly and she found Luce's eyes staring hard at her. Nien motioned for her to come out and she gave an introduction.
"Aaron this is my... sister. Luce. Luce this Aaron."
Luce nodded and stuck out a hand. Aaron smiled and shook it. His attention turned back to Nien and he said "Well I guess I'll see you tomorrow Nien." He grabbed er hand and gave it a squeeze. Then he disappeared into the night.
Luce and Nien walked back inside and closed the door.
"I can't really believe that you did that" Luce said. "Why did you pull back? You could have like... he really must love you." Nien looked at Luce,
"Yes. I guess so. I really like him. I hope we stay together." Luce smiled and laid down, but glanced back at Nien and whispered "He is pretty cute."
Nien smiled and finally sunk into slumber.