What had happened to make him think I’d started remembering him? Maybe it was just a dream or something. That had to be it. Saying that, I didn’t even remember him being in bed when I woke up. He just sort of appeared when he bit me. That... That can’t be right, can it? And if I couldn’t remember him, why was it bothering me so much? Why did seeing him upset bother me so much? I lounged around in the motel til it was time to start heading to this other bar. I had to settle things. If I couldn’t remember him after this, then I’d just have to leave. Being around him was just hurting him. I couldn’t put him through that, no matter how I felt about him.
Brody was feeding on some human in the corner of the bar when I got there. I’d had a little trouble finding the place at first til I followed Brody’s scent to it. I glanced at him as he healed them, sitting back. The human fucked off and I made my way over to him, frowning at how drunk he was. He looked up at me.
"See you started without me" I said quietly.
"Oh, hey Fate. I got you a drink" he slurred a little and looked at an empty beer bottle on the bar. "I might've drunk it"
He got me another beer and I frowned again.
He pushed the new beer towards me and I took it, not drinking any of it. He leant on the bar, apparently not even noticing the frown glued to my face.
"Y'alright?" he slurred. My mistake, he did notice. There’s hope for the world.
He sort of smiled. "Good, good" he got up all of a sudden. "I'm gonna be sick"
I rolled my eyes as he staggered past me to go and be sick outside. I stayed where I was, slowly getting grumpier as even more timed passed. I stood with a sigh, not even bothering to drink my beer. If he wants to be so drunk he’s sick, fine. Good for him. Meanwhile, I had a plane ticket to buy. I stood in front of him once I got outside. He was sat hugging his knees, his head resting on them.
"Well, it was nice seeing you" I said kind of grumpily and he groaned.
I rolled my eyes and walked off, heading for the motel. I’d barely made it three steps before Brody mumbled out an apology. Too fucking late. I kept walking, ignoring the tiny sniffle that came from his direction.
"Wait" he said, half stumbling over.
I sighed. "What, Brody?"
"M'sorry. I didn't mean... I just... I dunno"
I sighed again and he sniffled a tiny bit.
"Whatever. I dunno how to make you remember. All I'm managing to do is piss you off" "Brody, I'm willing to try whatever to remember but all it seems to be doing is upsetting you. Maybe it's better if I just go home"
He looked like he was about to say something but he tripped over. Idiot. I rolled my eyes again and he groaned, rolling onto his back.
“I dunno. Maybe we can try again later when I've sobered up or something" he suggested from the ground.
"There isn't going to be a later"
He shot me a questioning look.
"I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have"
"I'm hurting myself, Fate, it's not your fault"
"Either way, if I haven't remembered you by the morning, I'm going"
He pushed himself into a sitting position, looking up at me. "Where?"
He bit his lip and I kept my face blank.
"But I have no idea when you felt closest to me"
"Neither do I"
He bit his lip harder.
"Like I said, I'm willing to try whatever you think of"
He nodded, rubbing his temples. "I'm gonna go sober up" he said, handing me a set of keys, "meet me back at mine?"
I nodded and he got up, stumbling off to go sober up.
I lay on the couch, staring up at the ceiling while I waited for Brody. He must’ve been about an hour or so in total but he came back pretty much sober which I guess has to count for something. He came in through the window but I didn’t take my eyes off the ceiling. I kept my eyes glued to it even when he walked over to me.
"You okay?" he asked when I didn’t say anything.
He sat in the armchair and I kept my gaze on the ceiling.
"I was thinking... Maybe we should just try having a normal night together..." he said.
"It's worth a shot"
He pulled out a DVD of Much Ado About Nothing and I have to admit, I was almost impressed with him.
"How'd you know I like that?"
"You made me watch it before when I said I had no idea who Claudio and Hero were"
I didn’t remember it but I nodded anyway. He put it on, sitting next to me on the couch. I paid more attention to the movie than I would usually but then again, I’ve never watched it with a stranger before. He snuggled up to me a tiny bit and I was hardly in a position to tell him not to. It was the best idea we had, anyway. I leant on him a little, paying attention to the movie. I leant on him a little more once the movie was over and he planted a baby of a kiss on my lips. I kissed back and he kissed me a little harder. I hesitated before kissing back, hoping he wouldn’t notice. Yeah, he did notice.
"You don't have to if you don't want to"
"I just don't want to get your hopes up or anything"
"It's worth a shot, right?"
I gave a tiny nod and he hesitated before kissing me again. He nibbled my lip a little as I kissed back but pulled back again when I frowned.
"Sorry" I mumbled.
"S'okay. I don't wanna make you uncomfortable"
I shrugged and he gave a tiny sigh.
"D'you want a drink?"
I shook my head and he went and got himself a beer. He sat back on the couch with it but didn’t actually drink it. He was sort of fiddling with it.
"Are you okay?" I asked quietly and he nodded. "You don't look it"
He sighed. "Just annoyed at myself. I'm so fucking close to losing you for good and I still have no idea what to do"
"Stop thinking about it so much"
He nodded a little.
"I mean, if I had to do something like this, I'd just go with whatever felt like the answer"
He looked at the floor. "I'm not sure either of us are really quite in the mood for what could be the answer"
I shot him a questioning look and he frowned a little.
"I'm thinking it's either gonna be sex, or me feeding on you"
I wrinkled my nose up at that and he thought about it some more.
"I guess the second one would make more sense..."
"Why?" Or is that just some lame excuse so you can drain me?
"'Cause you've gotta have a certain amount of trust to know that a vampire won't drain you, and I know you trusted me"
I shook my head a little and he looked at me.
"How... How do I know I can trust you?" I mumbled.
"I love you... I'm hardly gonna hurt someone I love"
I considered it and his eyes moved to the floor.
"I don't like this"
"You don't have to do it... It was just a thought""
"It's the only other thing you've come up with, though"
He sighed. "Well you're welcome to tell me what makes you feel close to people, if you think you can come up with something better"
"I didn't mean it like that” I said quietly and he groaned a little.
"Sorry. Didn't mean to snap"
He drank some of his beer and I considered it again. He glanced at me and I groaned.
He put his beer on the floor. "You sure?"
I nodded and he shuffled up the couch so he was closer to me. He wrapped me in a cuddle, kissing my neck. I shut my eyes, trying not to think about what was coming. I tensed up as soon as he started feeding on me and he sort of hesitated I bit my lip, trying to relax and he played with my hair a little. He was a little gentler with his feeding this time but I still tensed up again. He finished after a couple minutes, healing me and planting a tiny kiss on my lips. He mumbled something but I didn’t kiss back, too busy being freaked out by what I’d just done.
"I love you" he said, looking a tiny bit upset.
I sighed, burying my head in his neck. "I don't think it worked"
He wrapped me in a cuddle, leaning his head on my shoulder. I don’t know if it was from the cuddling or if it was just getting late but I started getting kind of sleepy. I yawned and Brody picked me up, carrying me over to the bed. I yawned again, snuggling up to him a little as he lay down with me. I felt him put an arm over me but only just since I was almost asleep.
"I really fucking love you" he whispered, making me smile before I fell asleep.