I watched her fall, saw the tea flying, and heard Megan's gasp. Then I was on the floor with Anna, pulling at her.
"Anna! Oh my god Anna!"
Megan crouched next to me and leaned Anna up against her.
"We have to keep her head up. Anna, can you hear me?"
Anna mumbled something an her eyes flew open.
"You passed out. Are you alright? You've been under so much stress..." Megan began.
"Stress?" I looked anxiously at Anna. "What's the matter?"
"Nothing." She mumbled and sat up. "Oh, my tea."
"Anna you have to talk about this... you have been eating properly right?" I asked, the sudden worry that this was a repeat popping in to my head. Anna gave me a look.
"You've been with me most meal times this week."
"Oh... yeah. Come on, let's get you up." We helped her up and over to the sofa.
"I'm fine now... just a panic attack I think."
"You should go to the doctors."
"You made me go." I frowned.
"I'm fine. Just got a lot on my mind. I'll be alright soon."
"Anna seriously you know that you can tell me anything?" Megan said, taking her hand. I was about to repeat the same thing and then I suddenly realised that this wasn't my place any more. Megan was that person, the one who Anna could share everything with. I still had that but I had to back off. Take my own advice, I realised.
"I'll remake the tea." I said, getting off the sofa and picking up Anna's split mug. As I cleaned up the mess and put more water in the kettle I could hear her talking quietly with Anna.
The kettle had boiled and I was pouring Anna's tea when Megan appeared.
"She ok?" I asked.
"Yeah. Just the Leanne thing and your results."
I felt my stomach twinge.
"But my results were clear."
"Yeah but it's been playing on her mind. It all adds up huh?" She smiled.
"Why'd you go anyway?"
"What do you mean?"
"You know. You came to do tea instead of forcing anything out of her."
"She should be talking to you about things like this. I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't let you be the one looking after her sometimes."
"How'd you mean?"
"Well when Anna... you know... she got all mad at Sam for 'taking me away'. And I told her there was a difference between best friend and girl friend, you know... so I just thought I'd give you some space."
"You don't have to you know Cara. I'm not the jealous type, and I know how in love you are with Sam... I can see it." I blushed hot red and looked down at the tea. "See?" She smiled.
"I do love her. I really do." I smiled. Not long until she was back... and I'd have to face her and tell her about my results. Tell Anna I'd lied...
"Hmmm? Oh yeah. Just thinking." I picked up the tea and followed Megan back in to Anna's living room. "Here we go."
"Thanks." Anna smiled.
"So are you sure you're ok? Because-"
"-I'm fine honestly. Just a lot going on you know?"
We moved on from the point and sat chatting about nothing in particular until I decided I needed to go home.
"Will we see you tomorrow?" Megan asked, arm around Anna.
"No, I think I'll leave you two love birds alone." I winked.
"Shut up Cara, you're just as bad when Sam's here."
"I know." I whispered, smiling sadly. I missed her. I missed her hugs, I missed her tea, I missed her smile, I missed her lips, I missed her voice, I missed... everything about her.
"Hey," Anna comforted me, concerned. "What's that look for?"
"I miss her." I admitted, blinking hard.
"Oh don't cry." She made to stand up to give me a hug but I backed away quickly shaking my head and smiling. I knew that if she hugged me now I'd break down and tell her what was going on with my kidneys, something I wasn't ready to do.
"I'm ok. I think I'm going to go dancing tomorrow or something. Fill up my time. I think Liam wanted to rehearse or something."
"Are you going to hand out cvs?" Anna asked.
"Ah, yeah, I'll do that too." I agreed. Although I knew I wouldn't. The last thing I needed to be worrying about now was an interview or a job. "So I'll see you guys soon ok?"
"Yeah see you soon Cara, safe trip back." Megan smiled.
"Cheer up, love you." Anna said.
"Look after yourself you moron." I joked back at her and went to the door. "Bye!"
"Bye!" They said in chorus before I walked out. I hurried down the stairs and out the door before I let myself release the tears. Oh god oh god oh god. I couldn't tell Anna, she'd have another attack. I couldn't tell Sam, she'd come back and she needed to be in London. And then there was her birthday... I couldn't tell the others, they'd just let it slip to Anna. I couldn't tell anyone right now. Besides, I was still waiting for results. But I knew it was bad. Whatever had caused it, the results was still the same. I was in trouble.
And there was nothing much I could do about it.