“Oh my god, tell me, tell me now!” Cara said prodding my sides playfully, I burst out laughing and tried to hide my face for it had got bright red.
“Nothing, lets just say, that Sam’s grown on me, she makes you happy,” I said trying to keep a straight face and look convincing at the same time. Not an easy job when Cara twigs that something is up!
“Hmm, you better not be saying you have a crush on my girlfriend now,” she said pointing her finger at me.
“Nooooo. So not my type so you are safe there, I’m not going to just into bed with your woman …. Even if she is rich!”
“What’s her money got to do with anything?” Cara asked suddenly serious.
“Its not, I’m just bringing it back to the point that Sam is a very successful business woman and most people would only go for her because she is loaded. She may be rich with a business but don’t you think that if she was getting bored of you, she would have kicked you to the curb by now. I mean she could have anyone she wants, someone with equal amounts of money but instead she picked a student, up to her eyeballs in student debt.”
“Hmmmm” Cara said sounding a tad better about the situation but not fully convinced so I pressed on.
“Sam will be an idiot if she lets someone like you go, which she won’t do. You don’t have anything to worry about, you’re fretting about nothing.” I said wrapping a comforting arm around my best friend.
“Thanks Anna” Cara said giving me a warm and genuine smile, I’m glad I can rely on you to have my back,” she said.
“Always and forever …. But don’t get sloppy on me” I said with a laugh which she returned.
“But seriously, if you get lonely in that flat in the two weeks you could always…” I stopped myself, playing the sentence in my head, trying to figure out how Cara may interpret this kind gesture.
“I could always what Anna?” she asked.
“I was going to say, you could always crash on the sofa here, its really comfortable. I don’t want you to think that I am making a move on you though, I am just offering you somewhere to crash so that you are not on your own,” I clarified sighing slightly. I never used to have to clarify what I meant, but in recent times, it seemed like it was the only way, I didn’t want Cara to get the wrong end of the stick.
“Thanks for the offer Anna, and just so you know, I know your only offering me it as a good friend, you don’t need to worry.”
I nodded, brushing away some hot tears which had splashed down on my cheeks without me realising.
“Hey, don’t cry Anna,” Cara said pulling me into a hug, “What’s wrong?”
“Its just…. I hate how I have to tread on eggshells with what I say when Sam is there, monitoring my every action and sentence, trying to suss out if I am making a move. I mean she has grown on me as a person, and I can see how right she is for you but you can’t deny our friendship over the last few months has had the strain of it all.” I took a deep breath and carried on, “And I get what you’re thinking, it wouldn’t be as bad if I wasn’t in love with you …. I have gotten though that now and I am trying to get it back to how it was.
“I understand Anna, and I can see where your coming from…” she paused to take a sip of hot chocolate before carrying on, “I know you have been trying, but what you have to understand that we are different people now from when we started. We have grown and matured and we are bound to find differences and hit barriers but we cant just shy away from them. We have to embrace them, we have to battle through them and learn from our mistakes….”
“Hmm, learn from my mistakes …. You’re forgetting that I am the girl who didn’t realise at the time that her girlfriend was a prostitute.”
“Hey, that wasn’t your fault; she was a pig to you, and if I ever saw her again… I’d knock her out for the heartache she caused you!”
“Thanks. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, if I have learnt from any of my mistakes; it would be not to let actions explain things.”
“What do you mean by that?” Cara asked confused.
“Well think about it. I saw you ex kiss you and I ran. I didn’t let you explain but the action explain and I ran away. I ran away from you…. Another thing I regret doing but I have learnt from it.”
“See, you are already tackling the new challenges that face us, and in that sense we are growing. We both have to learn to deal with the problems that life throws in our way. I am always learning… I’m learning now to balance my friends with my girlfriend and keep everyone happy. “
“How do you do it so easily?!”
“Easily? Ha, its never easy! Sam can be a melodramatic and over analyse things as much as you can, sometime I want to bang both your heads together.”
“So I suppose, Sam and I aren’t that different then?”
“Oh you are totally different but just both have the same reactions to things from time to time.”
“So in short, we are both a pain in the arse from time to time?”
“Exactly!” she said draining the dregs of her hot chocolate and grinning at me. “And on that note, I suppose I should be getting back to the old ball and chain before she sends out a search party for me. I have said that I was going for a walk and that was about an hour and a half a go.
“Yeah, its past your bedtime missy” I joked and received a pillow in the face. I chucked it back at her along with the pillow which I had been leaning on. She threw them back at me and we both started giggling.
“Right I really need to go!” she said between laughs, “it was nice to just chat Anna, we haven’t just chatted in a long while, I feel as though a weight has been lifted!”
“You and me both!” I agreed, opening the door for her.
“Thanks Anna!” she said giving me a hug which I returned squeezing her shoulders affectionately.
“Remember Cara, If you get lonely in that flat, there is a sofa here which you are always welcome to.”