"What is that all about?" Anna cornered me as I was washing the pots.
"Sam being a complete-"
"-Don't you say anything about her." I warned. She looked at me as if I'd just slapped her.
"You're seriously defending the way she's being right now?"
"She just had a shock. She heard you and I in the bedroom, thought I was taking your top off..."
"Oh." Anna said, althought she didn't seem sorry.
"She's protective of us. I don't have to tell you how it feels to have to watch someone you love go with someone else."
"Harsh Cara." She muttered.
"I'm just trying to get you to see things from her side. I can't stand it when you and her are at odds. It's like... like two halves of me fighting it out."
"Maybe you'll have to-"
"-Really? You're really going to go there again?"
"I wasn't going to say that. I was going to say, maybe you'll have to draw a line for her, like you did with me. Tell her she needs to loosen the reigns."
"I can't do that. She's fragile."
"She doesn't act like it." Anna snorted.
"Yeah well, would you show your weak side to your girfriends ex, who by the way, still wants me back?"
"I've told you I'll always want that... but I'm not going to try anymore. I get it, you love Sam. Although I have no idea why..."
"That's because she's not your type."
"Oh and she's yours?"
"As a matter of fact, yes."
"Your first choice was me. We're nothing alike, Sam and I."
"You and I lasted three days. It wasn't a relationship and it was mainly based on friendship and the fact that you'd just lost your virginity to an arsehole. And besides, Amy was my first choice. She and Sam are quite alike. And you flipped when you saw me and Amy together. At least Sam hasn't run off on me."
As soon as it was out I realised that was really not a good thing to say.
"Yeah well you know what? At least that showed I was hurt. I cared. Apart from a few good orgasms and lots of money spent, what has she done to show you that?" She hissed. I stared at her, shocked. She seemed to realised what she sounded like and retreated. "Sorry. I shouldn't have said that..."
"She never asked me to choose. That's what shows me she loves me." I replied simply. "And you know what? It's what makes me question whether you really do or not."
I left her then, because I couldn't bear it. I crept in the bedroom and Sam dropped the shirt she'd grabbed to cover herself.
"Well we're going to sleep..."
"No. I'm tired of this Sam. Anna may love me, she may just be delusional, but I want her to be my friend, even though I might have just destroyed every chance of that ever happening again. So we need to drop this. I don't want to fight with you. I don't want to fight with her. I just want you two to get along without holding a dagger at the ready to stap the other one if they get too close to me. Anna was trying. That was normal for how we used to be. It's you and me that can't let go of the past Sam. We need to."
"I- I find it difficult."
"I know. I think you and Anna need to have some time, to talk it out, without me there. Both of you will have to promise to not get angry, or give up when you seem to be reasonably happy with each other because obviously that stops at the first sign of trouble. I'm talking a proper conversation. Now you can either do it now, or wait until you've both cooled off. But I want it done. Because I'm sick of being the tennis ball between you."
I sat down on the bed and buried my head in my hands.
"Cara..." I felt her sit on the bed and her hand, soft and warm, began to rub my back. "You know I'd do anything for you, but I doubt Anna is going to want to talk to me."
"I might want to."
I looked up to see Anna in the doorway. She must have followed me.
"Anna." Sam said.
"Look Sam, both of us love Cara and I think she's right. It's going to ruin at least one of us if we don't figure out all of this. We should be friends. And I'm up for having this conversation if you are."
I lookd at Sam who paused to look at me before nodding.
"Ok. For Cara."
"Thanks." I muttered, rubbing my eyes.
"Now or...?" Sam asked Anna who shrugged.
"Now is fine. If it spills over we can finish tomorrow."
"I'll go and leave you two alone." I muttered, kissing Sam on the cheek and standing. Anna hovered awkwardly by the door as I left and closed the door behind me.
"What on earth is going on?" Ali and Megan asked as I re-entered the room. They were sitting up in their sleeping bags, against the sofa.
"Sam and Anna are talking things out."
"You left them in a room together?"
"Should I call the police and ambulance now or...?" Ali teased.
"Not funny. If this doesn't work I really don't know where to go..."
I slumped face first on the sofa.
"Honey, you're caught between two people." Ali said.
"Thank you, Captain Obvious."
"And you are dating one, and best friends with the other."
"Yeah. Once again, thank you Captain Obvious." I smacked a pillow over my head.
"So maybe you're going to have to think about which one is realistically going to last the longest."
I looked out at her slowly.
"Are you suggesting that I choose? After all the shit you pulled out when Anna said that?"
"I'm just saying..."
"I don't really want to talk about it Ali. Can we watch a film or something? I just want to leave them to it."
"Ok." She sighed and went over to the table. "The next Nightmare?"
"No. Some action movie with no soppy crap in it."