"You know what I would really like right now?" Sam muttered in to my shoulder as we lay exhausted on my bed, wrapped in each others arms.
"What?" I asked, kissing her hair and inhaling the smell of us.
"Mint chocolate ice-cream."
I stilled and stared at her.
"What?" I giggled.
"Mint chocolate ice-cream."
"That's what you're craving? At-" I checked the clock "-half twelve?"
"Mind blowing sex?"
"Mhmm." She grinned and kissed me gently.
"Well then, I guess I'd better go get some."
"Oh no, don't. I was only joking."
"I've got some in the freezer. Two minutes." I slipped out of bed and slid on my dressing gown.
"I'm so lucky." She grinned at me.
"You are. Very. And strange." I went to the door and then turned around. "Mint chocolate?" I said again in disbelief.
"Yup." She laughed.
"You strange woman!" I laughed as I exited. "I have never known anyone have a craving for mint chocolate ice-cream at half- twelve at night!" I shut the door and turned to see Anna standing there. She looked like someone had just destroyed her heart. Oh yeah, that'd be me. I silently cursed myself for being so obviously happy moments ago. How long had she been there?
"Hey, are you ok?" I asked, reaching my hand out to touch her shoulder. She shrank away and pulled a fake smile on her face.
"Yeah I'm fine Cara night!" She said and disappeared as fast as possible. I groaned and shook my head. This was ridiculous. How was I supposed to stop being happy with Sam? And why should I? But the guilt for hurting my best friend in a way I couldn't repair was too much.
I grabbed the ice-cream and tried putting on a brave face before re-entering my room.
"Ice-cream for two!" I smiled as I closed the door behind me. Sam sat up as I climbed in with the tub and two spoons. "I didn't know whether spoons were needed." I tried cheekily.
"Interesting thought." She smiled and then the smile dropped. "What's wrong?"
"Cara. Please don't lie to me. You don't have to tell me but please, no lies."
"Ok I saw Anna in the hall. I just feel... so awful. I know I can't stop being happy with you, but I feel like I should. Even though I don't want to, and I know I shouldn't feel bad for loving you, I do. Feel bad I mean."
"Look, Anna does love you. It can't be helped. She can't help her feelings, any more than you can help yours. So she's going to have to fight through for as long as you don't return the feelings. And maybe she'll get over it, and maybe she won't. But you can't do anything to help her. She has to do it herself. Honestly, nothing you say will make it better. Just keep being her friend, being there for her, and above all making sure she knows you still love her as a friend, even if not as a lover."
"Why are you so good?"
"I've been in both your and her positions."
"Mhmm. Now do I have to eat this ice-cream all by myself or...?"
I grinned and picked up a spoon.
"Anna. Shall we hang out today, just the two of us? It's almost the end of term and we haven't had time to ourselves for a long time."
"Well, um... sure. If you want."
"I do. I don't want us to stop being friends. Ever."
"Ok." She gave me a small smile. "What do you want to do?"
"Shopping? And then lunch?"
"Yeah, sounds nice."
"Alright then." I grinned and she went to get her purse.