I almost told her. I really did. But something held me back.
"Anyway, I have to go and catch up on a whole load of work. You'll be alright with Shaun right?"
"Yeah." She knew. She knew I wasn't telling her something...
"Anna... you did enjoy the party didn't you?"
"Yes of course I did Cara." She sighed.
"And about when... you know. You and Leanne. I told you, it's nothing. It was bound to happen to someone, living together in a house with no locks."
"I guess." She frowned.
"Anna, seriously, don't let this mean you don't talk to me. Or feel awkward. I just want everything to be fine."
"It is fine."
"No it's not, and you know it."
"Alright, so it's not fine. But I don't know what to do about it Cara. We never see each other anymore, we don't hang out, we do nothing together. And I know that's partly because we've both gotten girlfriends... but I think we should make some time for each other, else this is only going to get worse."
"I completely agree! So why don't we do something tonight?"
"We can't just leave Shaun here. What about tomorrow night?"
"I can't tomorrow night, Sam's invited me to an art evening."
"So once again the girlfriend gets picked over me." She muttered and I gave her a shocked look.
"Excuse me? Since when am I the one who chooses the partner over us?"
"Since Sam, clearly."
"Anna, don't give me that. You've always been in relationships, because you're so pretty and funny. And every time you're in one you get wrapped up in it, so you hardly spend time with me. And I just let you get on with it. So I suddenly have a relationship, and you start berating me? Nice." I didn't know where it had come from, and I suddenly saw Shaun sneaking out of the room, obviously giving us space.
"Well at least now I know how you feel." She pouted.
"Anna, don't do that. Stop acting the innocent. Stop acting like you're the one who's hurt. Grow up. Why can't you for once tell me exactly what you want from me?"
"I want... I want to spend time with you! And the only reason I've ever got so involved in the relationship is because I didn't want you to have to be there and be all third wheel like. I didn't want you to feel like a third wheel. So I kept my relationships away from you." Her lips started trembling and a tear rolled down her cheek.
"Oh Anna. Come here you softy." I pulled her in to a hug. "I'm sorry for yelling. I just... I'm in a proper relationship, my first proper one. Amy was nice but that wasn't a real one; I didn't tell you about her. And us...that almost tore us apart. Can you imagine how nervous I was getting in to another one? In case it did the same? And it has done!"
"It hasn't... it hasn't." I'm just being silly." She wiped her eyes. "Look, tonight we can ask Shaun if he minds if we have some girl time. And we'll watch a film, or just chat in your room... whatever you want."
"I'd like that." I gave her another big hug. "I'm sorry."
"Sorry for what?"
"For messing up." I let her go.
"You haven't. Neither of us can help this. It's ok. And we're both happy in our relationships right?"
"So, it's fine. We just need to learn to time manage."
"Yeah, amongst our uni time management. I hate time management."
"I know." She grinned. "Now go and do your work so you're free tonight."
"Don't call me ma'am."
"Yes ma'am." I winked, and fled the room before she could land a hit.