I sighed and put my head in my hands, this is not the way I wanted it to pan out, I had wanted to tell Matt in my own time but Cara had put me in a predicament whereby I had to talk to Matt.
“Anna what’s going on? Cara said that there were circumstances, care to explain” Matt asked me, a perplexed look on his face.
“Matt, leave it!” I said not really feeling in the mood to discuss it, I had been preparing myself earlier to tell him I didn’t want to be with him but now it came to it I didn’t feel as confident as I had been in my room.
“No, I wont just leave it, what’s going on, talk to me” he said raising his voice slightly and clearly becoming agitated, “I mean, is it something I have done?” he asked.
“No, it’s just…” I began but stopped unsure what I was going to say.
“It’s just what Anna, what are these circumstances Cara mentioned, tell me!” Matt shouted.
“ALRIGHT!” I shouted back leaping from the chair I was sitting in and glaring at him, “It is something you have done”
“Well what is it?!”
“You pressurised me, you were so impatient you couldn’t wait and now you have taken away my purity forever and there is no way for me to get it back!”
“You weren’t complaining!”
“I felt as though I had to” I said, a sob escaping my mouth, I turned my back on him wiping away several stray tears which had slipped from my eyes.
“I thought I loved you but having sex with you made me realise that your not right for me, you weren’t willing to wait for me” I turned to face him, he looked as though he was itching to argue back but I could see he was holding his tongue, allowing me to finish what I was going to say before replying.
“It’s not working Matt, I think we should break up” I said quietly.
Matt’s expression changed in a flash, his face which seconds ago had been contorted with pure rage now bore a slightly baffled look.
“What do you mean, we are perfect together, don’t do this to me, I love you Annabella” he said.
“I’m sorry” I said stifling a sob.
“So was that the plan then, go out with me then when you get bored you dump me, after you had screwed me….”
“No it wasn’t like that, I…”
“Because here is something for you to think about, I have loved you from the moment I met you and I honestly thought you were perfect for me” he paused and when I didn’t reply he carried on. “It’s not just your purity gone forever, it was mine to!” He said, several tears now slipping down his cheeks now.
“Just go” he snapped.
Instead of going however I took a step forward, I felt bad now, I hadn’t meant to hurt him – Matt however grabbed a mug from out of the sink and pelted it at the wall in anger. I jumped back in shock, turned and left the room heading in the direction of Cara’s bedroom; I could hear Matt throwing whatever he could at the wall and the sound of them smashing into a million pieces.
I knocked timidly on Cara’s door, opened it and slipped inside pressing the door shut behind me.
One more problem to go.