I felt so much better after my sleep, it gave me time to escape from the real world and enter a make believe world in the form of my dreams. One downside to studying psychology however is the knowledge that any dream in some form, harmful memories suppressed into the unconscious mind.
I must have been so tired that I didn’t dream once and when I awoke I was surprised to see Cara still laid next to me on my bed.
"Where you here the whole time?" I asked her, smiling up at my best friend.
"Almost all of the time. Come on, it's time for some food." Cara replied grabbing my arm and pulling me out of my bedroom and into the kitchen where I came face to face with Matt.
“Anna, I was an arse…” he began but I cut across him,
“Save it, I don’t want to hear it, come on Cara let go buy a pizza or something, I need some air”
I went to leave but Matt grabbed my arm to stop me.
“Let go!” I snarled but he didn’t, instead he moved closer brushing a stand of hair from my face, I could feel his breath against my face and he moved closer still.
“I didn’t mean to make you cry” he murmured, “I love you Anna and I was a total prick to fly off the handle, I know how stressed you have been recently and …” he paused evidently choosing his words carefully. “I hate it when we fight, my world isn’t complete without you, I was a jerk to try and make you choose between me and Cara, and I love you!”
I pulled away from his grasp, “Yes, too right you were a jerk, I have known Cara since I was in reception, and I have known you for all of 10 minutes and you think you have the right to control me!” My voice had raised an octave my hands on my hips.
“I know...” Matt moaned, “I’m sorry Anna, really, truly, deeply sorry… I love you Anna” He said moving closer to me again but I stepped backwards.
“Yeah well you’ve got a funny way of showing it!” I snarled before taking Cara’s arm and pulling her out of the room, grabbing my coat from the coat rack and slamming the front door behind us both.
I was a while before either of us spoke and it was Cara who eventually broke the silence.
“Don’t you think you were a tad hard on him?” she queried.
“What?!” I said wheeling around to look at her.
“I mean, he was apologising after all” she said sheepishly.
“Whose side are you on?” I asked, glaring at her with an annoyed expression.
“Yours of course”
“Then how can you think that I was ‘hard on him’”I asked her, miming the apostrophes with my fingers.
“Well… like I said he was trying to apologise”
“You don’t even like him!” I shouted and Cara looked taken aback but I was so overcome with annoyance at best friend’s change of tune I didn’t care.
“Anna…” Cara said but I folded my arms and turned my back on her.
“You know what Cara, I’ve lost my appetite, I’ll see you later” I snapped before walking away from Cara and down a nearby snicket.
Cara did not follow.