"God you look awful." Cara remarked as I entered the kitchen
“Thanks?” I said, repressing the urge to snap at her for that remark, I was not in the best of moods after staying up all night, I just wanted to sleep.
"Thought I heard you up at six."
"What were you doing up at six?"
I handed Cara a cup of tea which I had just poured out for her which she accepted gracefully by taking a sip.
We chatted for a short while, arranging to have dinner after Cara had been to her lecture, luckily for me I had no lectures today and no stack of work to get through so once Cara had left for her lecture I shuffled sleepily back to my bedroom and flopped onto my bed.
I stared up at the ceiling trying to sleep but couldn’t, the Red Bull was inevitably taking affect now, much to my dismay because I wanted to do was sleep but I couldn’t.
Matt was in the living room watching television when I entered and he quickly muted it when he saw me enter, patting the seat next to him gesturing for me to sit down next to him. I sat and snuggled up next to him, listening to the soft ‘thump thump’ of his heart beat and allowing Matt to wrap his arms affectionately around me and kiss me lovingly on the top of my head.
“Hey Beautiful, you busy later?” Matt asked me.
“Having dinner with Cara then I don’t know what I’ll do… why?
“Well I just thought we could have some you and me time” he suggested, a flirtatious edge to his voice.
“I don’t know Matt, I’m …”
“You’re not ready, yeah yeah yeah” Matt said jumping to his feet and looking at me an annoyed expression on his face.
“I didn’t mean sex, for god sake Anna what do you take me for? Well?” he shouted in an accusatory tone.
“I, I didn’t …” I began but I was cut off.
“I just meant some me and you time, you’ve been so busy recently I just thought you could do with a break but no! You assume that by you and me time I mean sex! Maybe I just want time with my girlfriend, but you seem to have 101 excuses as to why you’re too busy!” Matt shouted.
“Matt!” I shouted getting to my feet, my voice breaking slightly as I tried to get a word in edgeways but Matt was busy shouting the odds now and my eyes were welling with tears.
“You seem to have time to have ‘dinner’ with her!”Matt spat.
“If you mean Cara, she’s my best friend!” I shouted back, standing on my tiptoes so that I was the same height as Matt”
“Yeah and I’m your boyfriend!” he replied with emphasis on 'boyfriend
“So, I should be your priority, you seem to have lots of time to go partying with her but no time to spend with me.”
“Well what do you want me to do? Choose between my boyfriend and my best friend?” I shouted tears now slipping down my face.
“Yes” Matt shouted back.
“Well I am sorry mate but you would lose every time “ I sobbed, “Every single pissing time” before leaving the room and locking myself in my bedroom, bawling my eyes out.
I pulled out my phone and scrolled through my contacts until I found Cara’s number and pressed the dial button. It was a few minutes before Cara answered and when she eventually did her voice was hushed.
“Anna, I’m in a lecture I have just had to leave the lecture hall to answer this call what is it?” her tone of voice was that of mild annoyance.
“Cara” I sobbed.
Her tone of voice instantly became that of concern, “What’s wrong?”
“Come back to the flat as quickly as you can … I need you” I sobbed harder before hanging up the phone, curling up onto my bed and allowing my tears to slowly soak my pillow.