I stood in front of Eric the next day and did my best to ignore Wolf as he stood just out of the shadows in front of the stage.
I still felt strangely quivery inside from yesterdays…encounter for lack of a better word.
I’m sure that I wasn’t meant to feel anything for a teacher. Yet I can feel a sort of…excitement around Wolf, sort of like eating a forbidden fruit. But it must be just a small teacher crush that all students get during their lifetime.
Or as I kept telling myself.
Eric leant forward. “Are you okay?” He whispered.
I blinked at him.
“Yes. Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked defensively.
He frowned and leant forward more.
“You look a little panicked.” He said worriedly.
“It’s my first time acting, of course I’m panicked.” I lied smoothly.
He laughed softly and leant back.
“Alright take it from the top Akira and Eric.” Wolf called.
I took a deep shuddering breath.
“Akira please pick up the phone. I really need to talk to you and I miss you.” Zane said.
I ended the voicemail and snorted.
If he missed me so much then why doesn’t he talk to me in person? Why not make the effort and actually try to find me. Was I not worth the effort?
Was he laughing behind my back with Melissa?
I clenched my hands into fists at the thought.
I flipped my phone open and dialled Zane’s number.
“Hello?” He answered straight away.
I ignored the odd flip flop of my heart at the sound of his voice.
“Hey, it’s me.” I said lamely.
He swore into the phone, causing me to flinch.
“Why haven’t you been answering my phone calls?” He demanded.
“I didn’t get them.” I lied.
“Yeah right. You’re ignoring me. Ever since that day with Mel you’ve been avoiding me.” He stated.
“Yeah okay, maybe I’ve been avoiding you. But it’s not like you made a good enough effort to find me or contact me.” I pointed out.
“Made a good enough effort?!” He shouted.
“What the hell is wrong with you? I’ve been calling you and calling you and searched the whole school for you. I even looked in that perverted teachers class room!” He exclaimed.
I clenched my teeth together.
“He’s not perverted. You only say that because you’re intimidated by him.” I said softly.
Zane sputtered in outrage. I winced and pulled the phone
away from my ear.
“Intimidated? By a teacher? That’s crazy.” He told me.
“Zane it’s written all over your face, anyway that’s not what I wanted to talk to you about.” I murmured.
“And what is it that you want to talk about Akira?” He asked
in a low tone.
I swallowed the automatic lie that clogged my throat and took a deep breath.
“I can’t be with you anymore. It’s obvious that Melissa is the kind of girl that you want so who am I to hold you back from that? I’m just sorry that I didn’t get the chance to prove to you that I can make a good girlfriend.” I whispered to him.
There was a pause of silence, a dangerous silence. I knew that Zane was probably clenching his fists and grinding his teeth, I know that his eyes would be spitting angry fire.
I shivered at the image.
“You’re breaking up with me?” He asked with a growl in his voice.
I stamped down my fear.
“Yes. It just doesn’t work between the two of us.” I told him quietly.
He cussed into the phone then hung up.
I stared at the phone in surprise.
He just hung up?
How dared he?
I let out a short scream and threw my phone across the room.
It smashed into my bedroom wall and broke into various pieces’.
I froze at the sound of approaching footsteps.
“Akira! Cut out that nonsense. You think we want to hear you on our day off from work? Be quiet you little brat.” My step father shouted from outside my door.
I watched the handle rattle and without a second thought I jumped out my bedroom window and ran.
And ran until I couldn’t run no more, until tears blurred my eyes and my bones and muscles ached.