I lay in the darkness
and think about my life;
my terrorizing past,
my horrifying present,
my not-so-distant future.
It looms over me like clouds to the Star.
It terrifies me so much,
it's hard to comprehend.
Life has become so scary and unknown,
I feel like a child without a blanket;
no protection from the monsters.
God watched over me,
making sure I didn't drown.
But just because I'm not sinking
doesn't mean it's not hard to breathe.