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"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference." -Eliezer Wiesel

This feels weird....all of these emotions, none of them good, are whirling in my head at the same time....what's wrong with me? One minute, I'm sad, the next, I'm pissed at the world...is this what insanity feels like? It must be....And this darkness, this darkness that surrounds me at all times, does it come with the insanity I feel? It consumes me, all of me, and yet I have the ability to hide it, to put a smile on my face, even when my soul is crying out in pain.....
Have you ever laid on your bed at night and just cried? Cried because you're ugly, or because you're not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out actually hurt your feelings. Cried because your family is dysfunctional, but you're just a kid who can't do sh?t about it. They tell you to stop complaining, that you have it much better than the kids in Africa. You don't want to be a burden, so you bottle it all up. Around people, you're the happiest ray of sunshine, but nobody knows that, at night when you're alone, you break down and just cry.

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